Journal Entry: Sun Nov 2, 2014, 11:17 AM
Well, it's apparently reached that point. My grandmother is refusing to loan my parents money because they already owe her several hundred dollars (and this time, apparently, we're asking for a few THOUSAND - not a good sign to her). With that, we have no other way of actually bringing in enough money to pay rent.
According to my stepfather, the landlord could legally evict us in as little as three days, though we haven't even talked to him yet so we don't know if he'll go that route or if he'll be willing to work with us on this. Other information I've heard says that it'd take a month to evict us, or even three months, but everything is second-hand information so I can't confirm any of it. I'll try to get my hands on the information in a more solid way to see what the timeline actually is, but no guarantees on anything :\
My stepfather's rambling on and on about this stuff, and he's my only information source since my mother is just sitting out back chain-smoking from stress. Stepfather's going between how we need to get jobs (nevermind that I'm mentally unable to and he's physically unable to), or how I'm gonna have to move in with my sister (their place is utterly trashed and there's literally no room for me to sleep, nevermind actually putting any of my stuff there), or how everyone's gonna have to move in to one place and pool money (my sister and her boyfriend have already said to me that there's no way they can tolerate that living situation for more than a few months, but stepfather's looking at it as a permanent solution). He also worked in a few snide snipes about my father and how I can't just go stay there or something ( though, really, that would be bad for my mother and stepfather anyway because they use my car more than I do, and I'm not leaving my car here if I move :\ ). Granted, I could ask my father if he could let me stay there, but he'd probably refuse because, like the last times I've asked him for help, he'll think the situation is "too stressful" and a bunch of other bullshit to avoid actually being a father, and he'll just ramble about how I need to "push through" my depression and "get past it" because it's a "phase" and he was "exactly the same" at my age.
They're also talking about cutting our Comcast services today or tomorrow to try and reduce costs - we should've cut back on this over a year ago, but what do I know? - so, if they actually do that, I lose internet. I may be able to do some things via my phone (I'm on my own plan and cutting it honestly won't help the money situation here - it's complicated), but other than that I'll have to be offline. I have no idea how I'll even try to search for jobs or anything without an internet connection, what with most things being online now, but my mother and stepfather seem to believe that "everything's online now" means "stuff's online if it's convenient but will magically be available offline once the internet's turned off."
I have a few (very limited-use) resources that could help the finances here in the short-term, but honestly, if I reveal any of that, my stepfather will use it all up without doing a single thing to make it last or actually fix the situation, and that would just screw me over completely the very next month, so I can't really even bring that stuff up to them. Feels like a shitty thing to do, but I've already been exploited beyond what's reasonable by him in the past and don't need to make that long-term damage to myself any worse.
So, even if we don't lose internet, I can't afford to take time being in chat right now, or hanging out or playing games or whatever. I have to try to fix a situation that isn't my fault, by trying to do things I'm unable to do, without the help I've been promised for years, and I have to do all of this as soon as possible.
I'll be around when I can be around but for now I just can't be. I'll just have to see how things go.
Mood: Pissed Off